Happy New Year

Posted in About Me, Work on January 1st, 2002 by Дмитрий

Well, I’m finally feeling conscious enough to update. A new month/year begins, with its requisite web site maintenance duties. Had a wonderfully incredible time with David for the past few nights, and unfortunately managed to acquire an awful bug yesterday afternoon.

But no matter how horrible I feel in the morning, I will have to go into work. The loss of the office help has landed me with the dubious role of managing an extensive legal and administrative clean-up job this week. This will include hiring new office help and dealing with odious city officials and non-paying customers… It won’t be pretty, especially if I’m not feeling any better come tomorrow.

But at least I managed to get my first good New Years smooch last night. With someone I respect and care about. Whilst watching the evil Dick Clark. Happy new year. Hopefully it treats me as well as the better pieces of 2001 treated me, if not better…


Posted in Health on January 2nd, 2002 by Дмитрий

More than 48 hours later and my stomach still isn’t feeling entirely normal. If this lasts more than another day or so, I’m going to Herr Doktor.

In other news, my day at work was surprisingly manageable thanks to two things: my dad wasn’t around to drive everyone into a panic, and all the problems he spent last week bracing me for were a total overreaction. You gotta love parents. And they used to say I made mountains out of mole hills.

I’m taking a bit of an email sabbatical whilst I try to figure out what went wrong with my old email service, so don’t feel bad if I’m not getting back to you. Hopefully I can eventually get the thing working efficiently enough to manage the increasingly large volume coming to me the last few weeks…

Now to drown myself in more Pepto. Then it’s bank, bills, Von’s, and coffee with Amy… Though I might be going with just the soda water tonight.

Blorg 2.0

Posted in Health on January 3rd, 2002 by Дмитрий

The ailment continues with no end in site. Somehow I managed to get absolutely nothing done yesterday, as well. Not like I have meals getting in the way or anything. I wish I could actually manage some solid food right now…

Anyway, I’m getting mildly annoyed by the frequency of porn and sex searches on this site, but not annoyed enough to actually think of doing anything about it…

Still waiting for the ForMac Studio machine to arrive…


Posted in Economics, Health on January 3rd, 2002 by Дмитрий

I filed my state taxes today. The Feds won’t take my return until the 10th, so not only did I not get Dubya’s $300 extortion refund, I have to wait those additional excruciating days to find out how much my real extortion refund will be.

Anyway, Sacramento was kind to me, and I may actually be able to afford that iPod before the month is over… And the printer too… The Xmas disappointment may be made up after I hear from Uncle Sam.

The stomach still feels like a pressurized tin can at 40,000 feet, and I’m starting to think that it could all be the fact that I haven’t had a good Fresno Mexican meal in almost 2 weeks. I usually manage to fit about 2 in each week, considering Fresno’s got some of the best authentic Mexican food around. I think I may just go grab some take-out tomorrow and polish it all off, and hope that I don’t have to immediately bolt to the toilet afterwards. But it may actually cure me…

On the plus side of my health issues, the coffee shop last night convinced me that my original goal of giving up cigarettes after I ran out isn’t soon enough. I threw away the last of my cigs today, and don’t plan on lighting again. Not even cloves or cigars, which were usually my vice-of-last-resort during my ‘quitting’ phases. With the stomach ailment still going, any thought of smoking just makes me nauseated right now.

So I go to watch Family Guy and they managed to remove it again. Bloody hell.

Consumptive Whore

Posted in Health on January 5th, 2002 by Дмитрий

I decided to convalesce alone this weekend. Which would be best, I suppose, considering my recent gastrointestinal status. Strangely, however, I awoke today feeling intriguingly normal. The test will be when I take a break from my all-too-comfortable lethargy to grab a Torta Carnitas from SuperTaco. It’s been over a month since I’ve had one. If Mr. Tummy can handle it, I’ll declare my illness officially over. But I’m not holding my breath.

I finally updated my Amazon.com wish list, after almost 4 months of slow drain on the number of items left. It’s just chock full, now, which should occupy you gift-givers for at least the next year or so…

Too bad there’s no birthday or holidays around the corner now…


Posted in Geekdom on January 6th, 2002 by Дмитрий

Spent most of last night e-window-shopping, except for a few choice purchases. Including two new domains. No immediate plans to put them to use, but I at least wanted to grab ‘em up. I’ll prolly be doing little more today.

I’m actually quite proud that I avoided doing anything even marginally social last night. I like being anti-social. Anti-social behavior is good for Hyaena’s health…

I’m going to try to put up a new trip journal, before the trip itself gets too old to be report-worthy. No promises, though. I miss David. Luckily the stomach problems are officially over.

Happy Birthday…

Posted in Geekdom, Travel on January 11th, 2002 by Дмитрий

…To Amy. It’s foggy and chilly and I’m in good health. A rare combination, and I’m in a good mood today. All in all, I think this will be an exceedingly pleasant weekend…

I’m spending entirely too much time on the 2000 Census site today, which surely isn’t helping me lighten the load of work since I took over the job of two people last week. Luckily, we should be hiring a new phone and typing person next week, which will honestly reduce my workload by about 40%. I’m amazed at how much time I waste answering phones and typing insignificant piddly shit. If that’s off my back, I can actually devote my time to stuff that matters, like making sure the company isn’t going broke.

It will also mean that I can get around to scheduling my vacation for this coming spring. My goal is to actually come through on my revolving promise to visit Andrea and Cho (among others) in Seattle, and schedule stops in Portland and Vancouver/Victoria at the same time… I have a scary feeling that I might decide on relocating to the northwest once I’ve visited it…

Anyway, David is coming today. This is such a good thing, I won’t even say how much I’m anticipating it. Maybe more Fresno updates next week.


Posted in Geekdom on January 11th, 2002 by Дмитрий

From my search report, it looks like some of you have forgotten where I hid my dirty stories. If you really want to see them, I might reveal their location to you if you ask nicely.

I was glad to have something to replace the defunct Goth.Code. Enter The Blogger Code. Not quite so all-encompassing, but still manages to tell quite a bit about someone. So here I go:

B2 d+ t++ k- s u– f i o+ x+ e+ l+ c-


Monogamy as Bondage

Posted in Rants, Uncategorized on January 12th, 2002 by Дмитрий

Monogamy plays a very dubious role in our society today. It is seen as the highest of virtues by the majority of individiuals - whatever their moral alignment in most other matters. The reasons behind the worship of monogamy are based either on archaic religious mores or irrational philosophical premises, and the demands which such beliefs place on relationships often destroys otherwise great romances.

The primary root of most monogamy is religion. Most religions restrict sexual and romantic activity due to the common mystical perception that pleasure is a sin. Thus religions tend to prefer any moral alignment which restricts the prevalence or enjoyment of individual desires.

Other often-touted reasons for monogamy stem from the desire to have and keep a single, life-long partner. Needless to say, this premise has been proven flawed by history indubidubly. Whether through marriage or interpersonal agreement, the majority of romantic relationships are based upon monogamy. Unfortunately, this premise is in fact the root of the statistically tragic plight of romance in the world today.

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Posted in Geekdom on January 13th, 2002 by Дмитрий

David is gone, and I’m contemplating how to change the way calendars function so that I can spend more than 2 nights at a time with him… O well, impractical thoughts, I’m sure. Besides, the immense amount of sex is becoming somewhat detrimental to my sensitive winter skin…

At least I managed to make it to Tower Records, where I dropped a small chunk of my forthcoming Federal tax refund for a stack of CDs. I feel I must repeat this next week, when David hopefully will be taking me to Fry’s for printer shopping and to Berkeley for record shopping.

Now I’m busily absorbing a nice long Simpson-a-thon on KMPH. Not sure whether or not I’ll have time to do the updates I was planning tonight. But I’m finally getting the hang of my new toy. Music videos for local bands shouldn’t be too far away…

Formac Studio

Posted in A Life More Boring on January 14th, 2002 by Дмитрий

Still not completely getting the hang of the machine… But it’s at least helping me with my forthcoming updates… I think it may even be worth it, if it just turns out to be an expensive type of digital camera.

Nothing much to update today. I skipped Open Mic. Interviews tomorrow for the new receptionist. I’m already waiting for Friday.

Your Gravity, It Pulls Me Through…

Posted in Friends on January 15th, 2002 by Дмитрий

Superfluid Helium 3 has a new music download site at IUMA. It looks like I’m actually gonna have to brave the Gravity Bar in north Fresno in order to catch those guys next month… Pity.

In other news, the first day of interviews landed me who I think will be our next hire. I don’t want to write off tomorrow’s interviewees, but I really doubt anyone will be able to match the person we saw today. Finally, my application for friendship with a certain Becky lady has been graciously accepted. I’m blushing.

Here’s to a stress-free payday.

Preemptively Reactive

Posted in Fresno on January 17th, 2002 by Дмитрий

I’ve been having this recurring dream where I’m just walking around the old Thrifty in Clovis, reading comics, eating ice cream, rummaging through the toy aisle, etc. For some reason, they’re really detailed dreams and yet nothing much happens in them. I think it has something to do with the fact that this particular Thrifty was closed down before the Rite Aid takeover, and thus it never got converted. It just sat there empty for years. Then yesterday whilst I was getting my lunch, I passed by the shopping center where it was, which has recently been remodeled. The Save Mart which was in the only occupied anchor tenant space had expanded to occupy the old Thrifty pad as well, and the remaining half of the center was being demolished. I guess I just missed occasionally passing by that center and seeing the sun-bleached fascia which still showed the ghost of the Thrifty sign on it. The last reminder of that good old Thrifty logo now gone forever…

I may have to explore the town for any others… I doubt there are any this far down the line, now, though.

I’m also about to take that leap into the world of high-speed internet, I think, considering that SBC is offering an intro promotion that I just can’t pass up… Yeah, I know, the promotions usually tend to get better as time goes on, and a year down the line there’ll probably be an even better deal. I also know I’ll probably get a bunch of anti-SBC hate mail now… But honestly, they currently have the best deal in this area. [I did in fact come to regret this decision within the next six months or so. My bad. - MCK 2003]

Speaking of this area, the frost is killing me. I’ve had my heater on for about 3 days straight now, and my apartment is still constantly chilly (I also don’t want to hear anything about how I’m exacerbating the “power emergency” with my love for warmth). I think it got down to about 28 last night (and I don’t want to hear anything from you north plains or Midwest people about how I don’t know what real cold is…).

How’s that for being a little preemptively reactive today?

I officially need it to be Friday. Friday night, preferably.

I’ve Changed my Primary Email 12 Times Since This Entry

Posted in Geekdom on January 17th, 2002 by Дмитрий

In case you haven’t noticed, I made my search utility a little artier and less obvious, since its use wasn’t exactly optimal anyway. Most people were using it to search for my dirty stories, not realizing that pages which aren’t linked within the site aren’t crawled by the search engine… So anyway, if you want to search now, just type it in the field in the navigation column and hit enter. Nothin’ special… And for some reason it still isn’t very efficient. I’ll have to look for a new provider soon if this keeps up.

Luckily, I’m pretty at home with my email now. Goodbye FadeToBlack/ EveryoneNet. Hello Yahoo! free email. Hey, sometimes the best things are also the cheap and easy things.

And you may go ahead with the SBC attack, as I called to check into getting my DSL today, only to find that they have yet to install it in two neighborhoods in Fresno, mine being one of those two…

Not sure if there’ll be any news until Monday. I’m off to the City to spend another weekend snogging with David, and pretty much being far happier than I have been this week. Which is saying a lot, considering that this week hasn’t been all that bad.


Posted in A Life More Boring on January 21st, 2002 by Дмитрий

Some people are really difficult when it comes to deciding how to politely shuffle them out of your life. I have never really been a fan of the hard-to-read or high-maintenance person, and thus I’ve decided that I need to distance myself from a certain someone who is really becoming too much of a burden for me. Unfortunately, I have certain fears that they may become sui-/homi-cidal or something. Anyway, we’ll see…

On the up side, I am back from a (way too brief) visit with David, who helped me relieve myself of large quantities of money (though I now realize that I spent alarmingly little for his personal benefit… O well…). I arrived home late last night with my first printer (a cute mini-porta-printer which will fit snugly into my laptop case), a stack of records, cds, and dvds, and even a couple new books. And here you thought I was forgetting how to read actual paper media.

I have yet to really get down and dirty with any of my new finds, but I promise to soon have some new features up on my personal section relating to my favorite flicks and books. They’ll probably resemble my desert discs page, just less systematic. I also plan to get to work on the Fresno section this week. I promise.

The only thing I regret about my visit to David was that once again my health left me somewhat incapacitated for a portion of my visit. This time, however, it was self-induced incapacitation. My previous health problem on New Years forbade me from celebrating with the traditional champagne toast, and my two-weeks delayed celebration got a little out of hand. I didn’t go so far as to be vomiting or anything, but I will confirm that champagne hangovers are the worst. I don’t plan to experience another.

I have been trying very hard to compose a Martin Luther King Jr. piece for Open Mic night, but after struggling with a tactful speech, I realized that the crowd at Fred’s is not of the caliber nor the demographic that I want my stuff heard by. I think the people who browse my essays in this site (though new essays have been slow in coming lately) are more appropriate consumers of my work. At least I know they’re viewing it voluntary; and because they’re reading it rather than having it recited to them, I think they are more likely to react rationally (even when they don’t agree with me).

Thus I’m back-burnering what I had written thus far, which included some of the following: Affirmative Action and Multiculturalism are the modern, politically-correct version of racism. Jesse Jackson will never even come close to Martin Luther King Jr., whether in terms of influence, intellect or respectability. Dr. King would have found the 90s yuppified “diversity” lobby a joke. America should stop having country-quotas for immigration - the only reason people are generally against open borders is because of the way immigrants tax the resources of a welfare state; if you get rid of the welfare state, there’s no reason to prohibit anyone from coming to America; the ability of people to succeed and get rich regardless of their history is why America is so powerful, not because of how kind, gentle or socially responsible the country is(n’t). People who are obsessed with rediscovering or preserving their “roots” are the most racist of all. Where you come from means nothing - where you’re going, and how you plan to get there means everything. The only visible reminder of the greatness of the Civil Rights Movement today is the emasculating habit of revisionist history. It is a sad reminder of lost greatness, indeed.

So, there you have it. Pity that Dr. King has become trivialized to the same profoundly disrespectful extent that we have trivialized Lincoln and Washington: I’ll never quite understand how anyone could feel gratified just to know that the bankers, lawyers and bureaucrats are sleeping in late in their honor.

The Den

Posted in A Life More Boring on January 22nd, 2002 by Дмитрий

Whilst roaming around Fresno taking some pictures for some new site features, I discovered that one of my old standby bars is open again. It used to be The Cave, now it’s called The Den. I have yet to step foot back inside since the reopen/change of name… Soon.

I’ve got some really irritated skin going on, and it’s not making me happy. I’ve stocked up on the over-the-counter remedies… If they don’t solve the problem by early next month, I’ll be visiting the dermatologist (much to the detriment of my budgeted splurges).

And Steve: if you’re still reading this regularly (like your bookmark at your old workstation suggested you were), I’ve got your Letter of Recommendation ready. My dad even signed it (and one for Erik). Hope the new job is going well… [Interestingly, this was a note out to Steven Washburn, who would two years later be arrested for embezzlement of the very company writing said letter of recommendation.]


Posted in Economics on January 23rd, 2002 by Дмитрий

Andrea mentioned the recent Kmart demise, and it made me reflect on all the hoopla about Enron lately.

Most people are parading Enron’s affect on the economy as proof that capitalism is bad. I beg to differ. Everyone who lost money in the Enron case deserves what they got. Including the pensioners, investors, speculators and governments. If you invest in something without properly understanding the viability of your returns, you get what you deserve. If you’re accepting the lies of dubious figures and even more dubious executives, you are merely paying for your lack of reserach or gullability. Capitalism promises the best way for smart people to get filthy rich. It also promises the best way for scoundrels and dunces to lose their shirts. Capitalism is thus synonymous with justice.

Then there’s Kmart, which has now burnt the company I work for, yet is still being allowed to stay in business. They call it “debt reoganization”, when in fact it’s involuntary debt forgivance. I think Ch11 bankrupcy should be illegal. If you can’t afford to pay your lenders or if you cook your books in order to trick the market, you shouldn’t stay in business *at all*.

Fortunately, it looks like Enron won’t be so lucky. I’ve actually been reading up quite a bit on the Enron debacle. In that case, credit raters, brokers, shareholders, customers, contractors and lenders all conspired to deny reality and ignore the law of identity, just so they felt secure about all the money they were pouring into a house-of-cards company. And then everyone gets surprised when they lose money over it. Verifies my position that in any situation, reality is the final arbiter.

One thing which always made me laugh about the “new” economy (when it was still a buzzword) was that the only thing all the new firms which were making up that new economy had in common was their ability to convince markets that they were viable even though they never turned a profit, and survived by geometrically increasing their debts. Sort of like most every other yuppie of my generation.

[2007 Note: Having since watched The Smartest Guys In The Room, I will confirm that I still feel this way. The fact that there were tons of people before and during the scandal who repeatedly wanted to say “something ain’t right” points to mass delusion as the only reason things like this happen. If you pretend everything is OK you start to believe that it is. Pity reality tends to catch up with you eventually.]

Rains in Velvet

Posted in A Life More Boring on January 24th, 2002 by Дмитрий

I have discovered the miracles of Gold Bond. I’ll leave that alone from there, though.

A new band is up on my local bands page - Rains In Velvet, a project among Vince and Eric from SleepyD, Marcos from Superfluid and a British boy named Simon, who knows how to wear jeans. I also changed the SleepyD pic on the page…

Family Guy is on, so I should be paying attention to it. Not sure whether to have a beer tonight or just pass out early. I’ll decide after Family Guy.

Enron Suicide

Posted in A Life More Boring on January 25th, 2002 by Дмитрий

It goes to show - fraud and lying are just another way people escape reality. And if you try to cheat reality to the extent that the head honchos at Enron have, reality will have its revenge.

I decided against the beer last night, since the last thing my skin needed was a dehydrating agent. Instead I decided to drop a Unisom and get an extra hour of beauty sleep. It worked rather well. I still can’t wait until it stops being so cold, though.

Glider is playing at Club Fred tonight. Hopefully the show is over early so that I can be off to see David early Saturday. Work hasn’t been too unpleasant lately, but my skin ailments combined with a generally foul mood make me really crave curling up with someone more benevolent than I’ve encountered so far this week…

New secretary starts Monday. Hope she works out. I’ll keep you posted…

New Secretary

Posted in Work on January 28th, 2002 by Дмитрий

New secretary started today. I’d be far less stressed if my dad weren’t so skeptical about her. I admit I was as well, at first, but after she pretty much had her whole job down by mid-day, I figured she was the right choice. Unfortunately, I have yet another mild bug today. I’m sure it has something to do with the cold cold walk I took from SOMA to Mission and back with David yesterday, combined with waking up to snow in Fresno this morning. The first time in about 3 years. And it’s definitely cold enough to recur tonight… If the clouds stick around.

Not so sure if those updates will happen this week after all… At the very least, I should have a couple small features ready after I take a cruise down the Belmont strip later this week. But no promises.

iPod en Route

Posted in A Life More Boring on January 29th, 2002 by Дмитрий

I ordered an iPod today. I’m just cooler than shit now.

No more snow. Thank bloody gawd. But it’s still way too fucking cold. I want to move to Palm Springs…

I have avoided the State of the Union like the plague. I think the thing is a joke these days. It was meant to be the President’s personal annual address to Congress, not an all-purpose televised pep talk, as it’s become. I’m peppy enough, don’t you think?

In a related rant, I’ve become more and more angry at all the idiots who put those flags on their cars back in September, and still have the same flags flying, only there’s little left of them but shreds of fabric. I can’t see how these jerks can possibly think they’re fooling anyone. Truly patriotic individuals should at least understand customary flag protocol. I guess it proves that the whole outbreak of patriotism on 11 September was pretty shallow indeed. But what can I expect?

I’ve been pretty patriotic most of my life, but I think that draws more from a deep, rational, abiding respect for the ideas upon which this country and its constitution were founded, and less from sentimental emotional things like flags or presidents or catch phrases…

Please, if you want to fly a flag, use a proper flag pole, and have a stationary object to affix it to, and destroy the flag as soon as it begins to show wear or fading. Don’t turn the symbol of America’s greatness into yet another meaningless bumper sticker.

Office Space

Posted in Work on January 31st, 2002 by Дмитрий

Another month comes to an end. Intriguingly, even though I put in 110% at work for a month, it turned out to be rather enjoyable converting the whole office over to my “system”. It’s good to be in charge, and be able to have things my way. Me? A control freak?

Now that the new secretary is lending a hand, I’m only putting in about 90%, which I figure is OK for the next month or so. I’ve got to balance things out, y’know…

But I came out of the deal very well: I’m making a ton more money, I’m getting to push people around and make things happen, and I’m feeling needed and secure with my job.

Combine that with the indubitably pleasant developments in my personal life (particularly revolving around onespecific person), and the relatively benevolent state of things around me, and I think this year promises to be better than the last few.

Now if only the weather wasn’t so dreadfully cold and if only my skin would stop being so dreadfully dry. I guess I can’t have it all…

Here’s to an optimistic Groundhog Day (since it’s unlikely that I’ll update before then).